I was the only one that got you, and that scared you.

 

 

 

 

When in doubt, read this | SERIE | WHAT PEOPLE REGRET BEFORE THEY DIE

No matter how harsh life was with them and their social-economic background, they all said the same things on their death beds. No one mentioned a single thing about what we worry about these days. And it should be a clear alarm sound for us. While we still have time.

 

 

I wish I had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

I wish didn’t work so much.

I wish I had the courage to express my feelings.

I wish I stayed in touch with my friends.

I wish that I had let myself be happier.

I wish I had lived in the moment.

I wish I had listen to my gut.

I wish I hadn’t worried so much.

I wish I hadn’t taken myself so seriously.

I wish I hadn’t argued so much.

 

FROM: ASAP Thought https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWZ1DAXtQxc

LIFEHACK.ORG http://www.lifehack.org/articles/communication/20-things-people-regret-the-most-before-they-die.html

Now, ain’t that SO SO sad. Ee could even say that we heard this before. And we did.

 

As much as we find clichés every time we open Facebook or Instagram, those clichés are not even part of our lives. But do you even sense the irony that lays in them?

YET no one takes the time.

 

YET no one is.

YET everyone does it.

 

YET no one has.

 

YET everyone does.

 

YET no one lives up to that.

YET it’s no one’s mantra.

YET everyone filters their’s.

YET everyone doest this.

YET no one does.

YET no one does.

 

They carry a lot of meaning behind them. They have lots of stories behind them. A lot of variables also.And more importantly, they are true. But under this coat of “clichés”, people forget to take this as a reminder, not as a life lesson.

You know the saying “One picture, 1000 words”? Well I say in this case “One sentence, 1000 meanings”.

 

 

 

The thing that we all need next to oxygen

At any point everything can end. I am going to repeat that. AT ANY POINT EVERYTHING CAN END. I know no one understands this, heck, I don’t even completely understand it.

But it puts everything in a different perspective. When do you live the most, when you don’t know when life’s going to end, when you live in the now, or when you know you have 24 hours left?

I always asked myself that. At some point, I understood life. Not all of it, but at least this very moment.

Look back at the past. I am sure you have at least one moment that you regret not living it to the fullest. You really can’t do a thing about it, but what you can do is to control how you act in the future. And RIGHT NOW.

Some people call it mindfulness, being the the moment, in the now… I call it simply LIVING. Everything has life in it: breathing, working up a sweat, drinking tea, laughing your ass off, adrenaline rushes, tears, melancholy, loving, letting go, writing, caressing, caring, indifference…Name some more, it really doesn’t have an end. Everything that you do can be grand if you choose to look at it like this. It sounds like the biggest Internet cliché ever, but it is actually backed up by psychology, more specific by neuro-linguistic. “But if it is that easy, why everyone is so miserable? ” would be the next question in line.

Well…because it is easier to be miserable. Yes, to be happy you actually have to DO something, to get you ass off the couch, to go out, to conquer life, to fight with life, and apparently no one has time for that. Which is kinda counterproductive, all you have IS life and time.

And what I realized was that the first step to everything is to be aware of yourself. How you act, how you react, how you respond(or how you don’t), how you express your emotions(or don’t) and how others perceive you. While I am all about not caring what others think, it is safe to say that we do care about what others think, and it is a good thing to a certain extent. It makes us that much more NOT megalomaniac. Caring about others’ opinions is toxic when what they say affects us on the short and long term and when the importance of their opinions surpasses our own.

Don’t get stuck in the circle that your mind can create. Try to go break free from this merry-go-round, see what you’ll find.

 

 

 

Power takes over weakness

God sends you in the worst storm ever

But you fight back a lot, not even knowing  who is your enemy.

Months pass, you change, life looks different,

And you are finally ok.

You look scared around yourself and you wait for someone to hurt you,

But all that is left around you is… stillness.

Stillness and happiness. Something that you missed a lot in the last months,

Or years.

And all of the sudden you smile. And more than that, you find yourself laughing.

And then you realize all that you want is to be innocent, to laugh,

To float above the world and to have your soul filled with happiness.

One day comes when all the pieces come together

And you will laugh at the misery.

“When you realized just how perfect everything is you will tilt your head back and laugh at the sky” – Buddha

 

When you rise above the water

When you leave your weakness at the bottom of the sea

Power will take over

And Congratulations! You are invincible.

Follw up of the “Cleaning Stage”

You did you best. You healed. You figured out yourself(as much as you could). We all know it’s best to go in a new place with all the old issues resolved. So that is what we did.

You lost your past. You let it there, now take with you only the lessons, without resentment. Great! Now let’s target the next level!

 

It won’t be necessary easy, but it’s liberating.

 

 

When sometimes all you need is summer

When everything happens before 12 o’clock or How the end of summer changed my life

Twas close to midnight. Soft, crisp breeze. Nothing unusual. Until the combination between the wind, the music in my earphones and my feelings synced in such a way that it created my very first true happy moment in the last 6 months, or even more, who even remembers. My smile was so big that my cheeks almost hurt, and my soul was full of a kind of energy that I never felt before.

Lighthearted, full of peace, blissfully calm. YOU are not in my mind anymore. The more I wanted you out of it, the more you wanted to be in it. For such a long time I let you run through my deepest corners, then I let the memories of you haunt me, and after a while of struggling to get you out of my heart, I gave up on trying to erase you. In that moment, you disappeared. This is the moment I waited for all summer long. And it just happened 20 minutes before the clock stroked midnight on 31st of August. This is what I call magic.

More than 3 months of continuous torment, of continuous pain in my chest that it did not even allow me to live. Months of wonder, of change, of tears, of sad lonely nights, of early mornings full of questions, of rage and misunderstanding. And here I am today, at the end of yet another season, at the end of the holiday, alone in my room, crossed legged, a drink in my hand, breeze in my face, with the world silent alongside, as I am witnessing how the pain just flies away from me.

I am finally free.

Free from you.

Free to rediscover myself.

@1001truths

When fado met Don Juan

Twas a hot summer day, not even a noise in the house. Soft breeze from the fan, iced tea on rocks and an oldie, “Don Juan” by Byron. Fado music in the background and good light to take this photo. Yep, I call that an evening.

 

Just yesterday I was talking about how novelty is all around us. This right here was just that. It was just another day until I made it feel special, and not a lot of things were required. You don’t need a lot to make your life beautiful. You have the power to choose how to live your days, but isn’t it wonderful to actually use this power? Heck, you can even call it a superpower, you won’t blend with the others, few people actually use it.

 

I see sad people more than I should. It’s not that they should be happy for me, but I am tired. I don’t see bubbly people, it makes me sad that they just settled in a nasty life. I want to see beautiful people, beautiful souls, beautiful characters, bubbly personalities…. I know life can be hard, I know that sometimes it’s hard to even get up from your bed, I know, I get you, I am here for you. But don’t you get the urge to fight that? Aren’t you afraid that you are going to leave this earth with only these kind of memories? Don’t you feel a rush in your veins to get up, go outside and LIVE?

 

And yes, this is what I learned from reading Don Juan and listening to some fado. It’s that simple if you are open minded and if you guide yourself a little bit. Just try it, it’s the best drug to become addicted to.

 

 

@1001truths

 

When “strange” lays on your lips more than it should

Pages from a journal:

 

< I am finally ok. I can breathe by my own again. I can go outside and feel good. I can finally grow. No, I did not forget you, but I moved on. Some weeks ago I said I was feeling like I go around an empty hole. Now, that is no longer the case. I managed to break through the painful pulling energy that you still had for me, and now I just float in the darkness. But it is a beautiful darkness.

I finally found my peace, boy. I figured out what was between us, I got away yet again with a sour taste, and I fucking left. For real, this time.

I missed you in so many moments and in so many ways in the past months. I missed so many touches, so many wanna-be moments, so many dreams, and not so many happy moments, lately. I feel free from you.

I know you would be proud. I know you would be happy for me. I am just never going to find that out. For how long am I going to keep on wondering about you? I really don’t know. I just know that I wish things would’ve turned out differently. I just wish we could still talk. I just wish we could heal each other once again, be it for the last time, I do not care, but we could’ve at least try. I had to leave because you were so hard to reach and to understand. My life was pitch black and I needed some time alone. You couldn’t even leave me alone for a number of weeks. You selfish. So I had to seek out my own peace. And I did that. 3 months later, I finally made it.

And now, I am wondering…what if we could still talk? What if I see you? What if we could share what has been going on these past months? What if we help each other? I would still like to see you, to talk to you, to help you, to be just as genuine as we were when we first met. Such a huge part of my life just flew away…This is how it is supposed to be? Maybe, maybe life was that harsh with us. But…I just cannot forget that we were kids, that we shared so much, that we shared 5 years of our lifes, and lately, that we managed to destroy our relationship. You know me so well, I know you so well… We could have help each other grow once again.

A strange, empty feeling slowly swallows me. Is it that easy to lose persons? Is it that easy to forget love? Is it that easy to lose connection? Is it that easy to have such a deep abyss between past and present?  Were we really supposed to be estranged? And the saddest thing about all is that…. all my struggle, all these question don’t even matter. They are just blank words, doomed to never have an a person to answer them.

I chose this path myself, but it’s all so…strange.

 

What 92 days taught me(A summer serie-part 3)

 

Isn’t summer great? Even when it ends, it’s still wonderful. Do you remember how you were back in spring? Didn’t the summer moved you, changed you, made you a little bit better? I know it did all of that for me. Either that, or HOW CAN 3 MONTHS CHANGE THE ISH OUT OF YOU!!!

I just want to remind you that life happens right now, and you don’t deserve to waste it. I just want to push you to the best version of you. And it just happens that when the seasons change, when your activities change and when perspectives shifts, you get a boost of so much needed energy.

 

Starting from the bottom, now we are… in the middle.

YES! Still wishing for the very top. But there is a journey that stands between you and that. And more often than not, your own mind plays tricks on you, and you have to overcome ’em.

4 WORDS: NIGHTS ON THE BEACH. Or everything that has to do with a beach. I cannot wait for the last moments of summer on the beach, when everything just slows down and you get a boost of great energy.

Don’t you just learn a lot about you when you travel? In my travelings this year, I know I discovered a lot, and I did not even realized it. I knew that 2016 it’s considered to be a year of change for the willings, but really…I have never expected THESE in this summer, these past 92 days:

☼ spiritual breakthroughs

☼ a place for deep peace

☼ learning

☼ finding out that opportunities come disguised more often than you choose to believe

☼ to never say ‘Never’

☼ that life brings you the best and the worst and it’s only up to you to manage everything

☼ that novelty it’s everywhere around you, you just have to look

☼ that you don’t have to define yourself using other people, ever

☼ that freedom can be found literally everywhere

☼ that fighting is not an option, it’s the ONLY OPTION

☼ that being yourself is the only way you can begin to be happy

☼ even when something bad happens, it can actually turn out to be a major switch in your life

☼ trips with friends are LIFE

☼ you can be free with people around you too; it’s even better like that

☼ when everything fades in the background, all that is left is LOVE

☼ people can take things from you, but they can never take your knowledge, your dignity and your being

☼ concerts with the right people…you need that at least once every summer

☼ people..you need them every damn day

☼ the right energy gets you far

☼ anxiety can be fought

☼ your can be the boss of your brain… all day, every day

☼ your reactions have a logic reasoning…you are not crazy

☼ neurolinguistic programming is your boss…really. Learn to master that and you are in business

☼ good manners, good grammar and good attitude take you far, and no matter how cool it is to be a rebel, there is no way you can fail using them

☼ play by your music, but make sure that you are in sync from time to time( if you have a little knowledge about how remixes or mixes are made, than you really get what I am saying)

☼ random people cannot define you, no matter what they say, good or bad

☼ independence is all great, but don’t forget that you can actually click with people, you just need the right people for you, and you are the only one that can determine their characteristics

☼ let people do whatever they want, you will never change a person if he is not willing to do that by himself

☼ harsh experiences = BEST LESSONS EVERRRR SISTERRRRRRRR

☼ do not EVER underestimate your knowledge in different subjects or areas. Everything binds together and the greater the expansion, the greater the understanding

☼ YOU WON’T CARE ABOUT OTHER’S OPINIONs ON YOUR DEATH BED. Yeah, it’s creepy, but it doesn’t make it less true. Opinions are just some (don’t turn into a ruthless rebel villain now, please)

☼ rediscovering the joy of being me, of finding stuff out, of reading, of theater, of art in all forms

 One more season to go, right?

 

 

@1001truths

 

If your heart is broken

I am not going to tell you that you will be ok. I am not going to sit here and write to you that life will be oh so much better now, that you will find your Prince Charming and that you will live happily ever after. Because maybe you know that deep inside, or maybe that won’t even be your case. Maybe you will find the frog and you will kiss it. Or maybe you will stumble upon your Prince not on a white horse, but on a grey donkey, and you two will build your lives together from that point forward.

There are so many stories, and each and every one is bound to be unique and just right for you. But you don’t know what is going to happen or when, and neither do I. I don’t want to make you feel better, because I can’t. When someone disappears from your life, no words can help.

No, I will let you grief. I will let you live in your pain for as much time as you need to. I won’t force you to smile, I won’t make you giggle. I will wait for you to be in the right set of mind to accept what I am going to tell you.

And that is: Lessons. You are now learning a lesson. You are in the process of changing, and that is sometimes hurtful. But it’s ok, you are not the only one. I am here, right by your side, to provide you with the right support. I am not going to live your life for you, I am not going to step in. I will just talk to you. If you resonate, I am very glad.

It would seem artificial if i tried to help you. Because, you know, I can’t.

 

Say whatever you want about me, but I’m the one keeping it true. People can only be by your side, but YOU have to live your own life!

 

If heartbroken, listen to this.

 

@1001truths